I am not one to walk out of a movie. Specially when I'm not alone. I was with my boyfriend Nilson and we both agreed to walk out about an hour or so into the "The New World".

We both agreed that the movie is probably not so bad, just slow moving at first. Because of known American history I knew that when the movie revved up it would also get extremely depressing.

I'm not a huge softie and I don't usually admit this, but during the first 30 minutes of the movie I felt like someone in my family had died. Knowing that all those Native American Indians died when the New World was discovered really bothers me. The movie's narrator Colin Farrell pointed out how the Native American Indians were peaceful. They didn't know about hate, greed and all those other terrible qualities of our modern world.

This made me feel worse than ever, but at the same time made me think about some of the Christian ideals about (the supposed) God, his love for us and the free will he grants us.

Here I am, a human being, sitting in a dark theater watching slowly as movie: "The New World" play out in front of me. I'm stricken with grief just knowing that the people I'm watching as beautiful as they are, will surly soon die at the hands of others.

The strongest reasons I walked out is so I wouldn't have to watch them be slaughtered.

Then I think about (the supposed) God. He is up there, where he has always been and he's created what a deity of great power and good would surly call a disaster; a race of beings who kill each other in his name, i.e., September/11, Inquisition.

I didn't see the Native Indians be slaughtered, but I knew they would be. Didn't God know about the world that is today at the moment of it creation? Didn't he know that his name would cause more harm than good?

Christians always use the great "Free Will" argument, but all the free will in the world doesn't undo the fact that (the supposed) God is all knowing, all powerful and exists outside of known time.

If anyone can help me to understand the holy side of this argument, then please do.
I swear I want to understand, but it seems outside the bounds of reason.

"Faith is misguided hope"
-Leandro